Reality

I honestly don't know what to think sometimes. Is this life real? What is real? I just want to state that if I were to die right now I would not be happy because I have not come close to accomplishing my goals. If I even come close to accomplishing all of them I could die happy. But as it stands reaching those goals would be like climbing Everest with no preparation.

So I am asking God to guide me and help me reach some of those goals. Even if this life is some sort of odd facade I want to atleast know with my dying breaths that I tried to the best of my abilities. I think that is what everyone should do: Try to get life by their hands.

And finally I just want to say I have had some huge embarresing screw ups that I hope no one will ever know about. But if they do oh well because I will make sure nothing but death stops me.